How do you live in two different worlds?
This gets more confusing as times goes on, there is Yoga Bill that goes to class and expounds the virtues of how God wants us to treat each other and how great it is to be here, and then there is working Bill who attempts to take what he learns off of the mat into the real world. That world where we strive to be our best and compete for work and whatever else to survive our current economy and so on. There seems as if there is no virtue in the workplace. I feel as if I'm in two different time zones here in the zone where it feels comfortable and the zone where I have to put a face on and compete against my fellow workers. Its as if I'm grasping onto and holding onto the old self because its all I know, the concept of let go and let ( Source, God , Universe etc etc) take over is on my lips but just not quite where it needs to be. Having lived for so long thinking I'm in control for so long only to find out just how tenuous control is I'm just at wits end. I am begining o understand that which is called duality. I suppose its a matter of trust that all will be well.
My meditation isnt where it most likely needs to be, and there are a host of shortcoming I could ramble on about. Does anybody else get this out whack?Did Buddha and Jesus have these days? Do I need to write a book bout dis?
By the time work and everyday life Bill catches up to Yoga Bill maybe it'll be okay but till then its a work in progress.
This gets more confusing as times goes on, there is Yoga Bill that goes to class and expounds the virtues of how God wants us to treat each other and how great it is to be here, and then there is working Bill who attempts to take what he learns off of the mat into the real world. That world where we strive to be our best and compete for work and whatever else to survive our current economy and so on. There seems as if there is no virtue in the workplace. I feel as if I'm in two different time zones here in the zone where it feels comfortable and the zone where I have to put a face on and compete against my fellow workers. Its as if I'm grasping onto and holding onto the old self because its all I know, the concept of let go and let ( Source, God , Universe etc etc) take over is on my lips but just not quite where it needs to be. Having lived for so long thinking I'm in control for so long only to find out just how tenuous control is I'm just at wits end. I am begining o understand that which is called duality. I suppose its a matter of trust that all will be well.
My meditation isnt where it most likely needs to be, and there are a host of shortcoming I could ramble on about. Does anybody else get this out whack?Did Buddha and Jesus have these days? Do I need to write a book bout dis?
By the time work and everyday life Bill catches up to Yoga Bill maybe it'll be okay but till then its a work in progress.
sandy
I'm thinking maybe it's like seven continents that make up the world....each with its own climate and customs, but it's
still a unified whole. Besides Yoga Susie and Work Susie, there's family-of-origin Susie, and Birding Group Susie, and Al-Anon Susie, etc.. But,
essentially, it's all Susie. I think I get stuck most in family-of-origin stuff. I really have to work at being my truth with my siblings, cuz those folks
are most comfortable with the old me, the very raw and immature me....not that I'm in the full blossom of maturity, mind you, but I've at least busted
out of the cocoon at this point. As we like to say in Al-Anon, family knows how to push your buttons the hardest...because they are the ones who installed
them! 
What works for me might not work for everyone, so you gotta explore a bit. But I can catch myself the quickest when I ask myself just two little
questions...is what I'm doing right now "disease" behavior or is it "recovery" behavior? 
