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It occurred to me last night that a lot of the self-criticism that I engage in comes from my perceptions of other people's opinions and reactions to me, or my judgements about myself. No suprise there.. and for years, the common wisdom, "Don't worry about what others think, etc", has never been that helpful .

Here's the thing.. that really is helping, finally... if I don't know who I am, really, and don't have a good clear perception of myself as an expression of the infinite, of course I am going to try to get that knowlege from other sources. It's the same as the search for love, of course.. the need to know who we truly are.. because we ARE love. And if I don't know that, I am going to be endlessly trying to get theat knowlege from someplace else, which is crazy making.. "I must be ok, they like me.. I must be an idiot, because I fucked up, etc, etc,"

The analogy that occured to me was this: if you didn't have access to a mirror that accurately showed you what your external self looked like, you would constantly be looking in mirrors wherever you go.. except that what if none of them where accurate?What if they were all funhouse mirrors, with the image changing depending on the strucuture of each mirror? So you'd always be going, "Whoa, I am a big fat cow ".. "Shit, my face is all squished up", etc, etc.. If I really know who I am, I won't feel driven to keep looking in all those other mirrors to see the truth.. If I happen to see them in passing, the false images that show up are seen for what they are.. reflections that are skewed by the surface they appear on.

Yea!!