(My apologies for such a long post!)
Hello everyone! My name is Alayna. I am a 29 yr old student, wife, and mother from Oklahoma. I started doing yoga when I was 22, but it was only one piece of my exercise regimen at the time, and so I did not delve into it very deeply. In the next couple of years I got into the best shape of my life, however I was soon unable to maintain rollerblading 4xs a week and visits with a personal trainer 3xs per week. Soon I did nothing and gained most of the weight I had lost back.
When I became pregnant at 25 I really wanted to be as healthy as possible. I followed a healthy diet and walked for 45min-1 hour each morning. This kept me from gaining too much weight, and continuing to walk regularly after the birth of my son helped me to loose the baby weight.
Fast forward, my son is weaned, I am a student, I have begun working part time...I was married last summer. The excitement of the wedding and honeymoon carried on to my normal life. It became easy to indulge in both food and especially alcohol. Come Christmas time I found that my system was extremely out of wack. That's when I started doing yoga again. Nothing major, just my Gaim video "Yoga for Weightloss with Susan Deason." I started at doing it just a couple times a week and was amazed at how great I felt. Before I knew it I began doing it 4-5 times a week, or as much as I could.
It didn't take long before this simple yoga practice made me feel so much better physically and mentally. I became more conscious of my habits, trying to increase my good habits and decrease the poor ones. I began adding cardio workouts to my routine, the cardio dvds from the P90x program. I also added Mandy Ingber's "yogalosophy" to the regimen. I lost 15 pounds slowly between December and May.
As the summer got going I was doing great for awhile, but slowly began slipping into poor eating habits. (I feel most of my problems stem from laziness in preparing proper frequent meals rather than eating junk.) Also, with summer lake getaways and get togethers with friends, my drinking became more frequent again. Despite all of this was still doing my workout and still looked good on the outside. Before i knew it , working out became more about looking good than feeling good. But because my eating and drinking was becoming less disciplined, "looking good" was becoming more and more difficult.
I then came to the conclusion that i was pushing myself too hard with the cardio and so i quit and focused solely on yoga. For awhile this was enough. I began feeling more centered for a bit, and even found myself called more to my spiritual side. I began to listen more to my inner voice, and even began to pray.
I kept up doing yoga around 4-5 times per week, again with my dvds. As far as diet, I would go back and forth with disciplined and undisciplined eating, and with all of the summer activities, drinking was hard to resist. I would pray and my inner voice would tell me that I needed to stop the drinking. ....So I stopped listening to my inner voice.
So here I am, the last few paragraphs describe this summer, and it's only July. All of these thoughts, progressions, digressions, etc..have happened quickly in recent time. I have now gained about 8 pounds back.
I am here and have come to yoga because I want to be a healthy, happy, calm, patient, and loving human being. I want to feel centered and bring balance to my body, mind, and spirit. I'm tired of being a mess. And yes, I want to look good. I thought on this for awhile earlier today and decided to rid myself of some of the guilt of wanting to look my best. Our outward appearance can serve as a gauge for what is happening inside of ourselves. So maybe there is nothing wrong with being concerned with my appearance...
Ok, I am beginning to ramble!!! I replaced my evening cocktails tonight with 2 glasses of iced oolong tea. Not used to the caffeine maybe!! LOL
I look forward to learning and growing in this community.
Nice to meet you all