So I have been using a prayer for my meditative practice recently. This is a change for me since I have usually used just my breath during my meditation
sessions. About a month ago I picked up a book by Eusawaran (spelling ?) that discusses a method he teaches in which prayers are used as ones fundamental
focus.
The prayer I use is about 50 words and I just say it to myself silently for about twenty minutes.
I mention this because I have noticed how it is helping my asana sessions.
Very often when I am meditating I struggle with feelings of tiredness. This is actually one of the main hindrances, sloth and torpor, in Buddhist teachngs.
And I have noticed how this feeling is both physically and emotional-psychological. Sometimes it means I need to rest and other times it is just actually more of an emotional feeling of apathy.
Today, as I was doing my asanas, I noticed how this same feeling comes up in my poses. I think I had always just kind of accepted this feeling
as...well..normal or something. It was kind of always in the background. But the big leap I made today is I noticed how I really can not be paying deep
attention to my asanas if I am still feeling this tiredness. It sounds so damn obvious now but it has me all excited.
Once I noticed this I actually tried to pull my attention out and put it back into my body. It was like there has been this chunk of exhaustion and apathy
that I had just become so accustomed to that I never really noticed how much of an obstacle it has been.
There is so much in the world like this. So many times people will feel sad or angry or depressed or anxious and since everyone else feels pretty much the same
junk it just becomes the ordinary consciousness. But it is not. Its like some chronic flu that so many people have that folks have just learned how to adapt
to it.
OK. So I am sure this excitement will fade as all leaps quickly become insights that must be acted upon and worked on. That is what Eric meant when he talked
about yoga as the development of fearlessness because it gives you insights into your true nature..and you need to be fearless to act on them in ones life.
peace to all,
gideon





